Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Welcome to Ms Red White and Beautiful...............


Welcome to my blog friends!

I am so happy you took the time to come to my blog and get to know me. I am here to give you updates on my thoughts and progress as a BBW model, BBW porn actress, and BBW in a society that is still trying to accept who we are. ( For those that don't know BBW stands for Big Beautiful woman)
I start out with the basics.. how I started, people I have met along the way, how they treated me, how I was feeling about the situation, etc. I will add notes and comments to events I attended and photos of my progress. I will include you in my thoughts and progress and hope that you will inspire me to be the best I can be at all that I do as a BBW. 


Note:     if you do not want to see me NAKED.. Please leave now... I love my body. It has its flaws.. but what one might think is a flaw is something special to another. "To each his own" as they say. I have stretch marks, I have folds, I have pale skin, I have a Huge ass, My legs are large, my boobs sag. But each one of these things are NOT who I am ... they are my accessories.... and I love all of them...regardless of what anyone else thinks....


Now as you scroll through the pages ( NOTE: as you reach the bottom of the blog you will see "OLDER POST" click and see the countless updates as needed) You will see my journey and my countless updates so if you are returning the most recent are on the last page... 

Last .. enjoy... leave me comments.. I never let one go unnoticed. And I hope that maybe if you never really looked at a soul of a Large woman.. you will feel mine as I share with you ALL of me...

Love and Kisses Always,
Ms Red
Disclaimer... Every story has two sides.. not everyone sees the experience the same way... I have way too many years NOT sharing mine... and as a woman, a large woman that often sees the world through rose colored lens... my experience brings a different way of thinking to being a BBW .. follow me as I share my world.... I don't hate ppl or want everyone to be my friend...I hate the experiences we shared.. maybe my experiences will help other experience it different if my journey inspired them to "Think" differently.... be humbled ...

Friday, June 1, 2012

Thursday, May 10, 2012

Hello Everyone....

After countless social media pages including the last Facebook I have decided not to make anymore after being deleted once again...

I am always here ..at least for now.. I will check once a week or so...
You can always reach me at my email...
msredwhiteandbeautiful@yahoo.com
I still cam with you on occasion.. (thank u skype) @MsRedWhiteandBeautiful

I have enjoyed all the time and attention you made for me...

All my love and blessings..

Ms Red White and Beautiful


Monday, December 5, 2011

I love the girls of The Curvaceous Bounty of Sin City....

 


February 12,2012 show.. All about Red
http://www.ustream.tv/recorded/20417592
 http://ustre.am/:1nFy0

November 27, 2011 show on BBW Fan Fest...
 http://www.ustream.tv/recorded/18796366
http://ustre.am/:1gRNc

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

From the begining....2005

A woman sometimes get lost in the confusion that society creates as to whether they are sexy or not. Defining "sexy" comes easy to some but to your average house wife is comes with limited access and reinforcements. After having my 5th child I was programed to feel less than sexy. After years of just getting what's left over ..It has hard to feel sexy. The kids and my husband came first. The house work came first. Friends and others came first. I was just lost and really resented myself for forgetting who I was.
One day I woke up and decided I had had enough. I didn't want to be what society defined as "sexy". I wanted to be my "sexy". I didn't want to lose the baby weight I wanted to embrace it. I wanted to be accepted just as I was. *Easier said than done.* I didn't want to conform to medical standards and shed the title morbidly obese. I didn't like the insecurities I was displaying to my 3 daughters as they began to see themselves through me. I knew deep down I was "sexy" but raised to never display any form for "adult behavior" in fear of setting a bad example. Then was confused by how society takes "sexy" and automatically attaches it to "adult".  Why can't you just be "sexy" as you are through confidence. That would be the ultimate question as my journey into finding my sexiness and discovering Confidence.....

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

1st attempt to find the sexiness....




Around age 27...I decided to try to model again... I attended a casting call in Phoenix to find it was "adult" content oriented. But in my opinion I thought my shoot was splendid. I was on time , worked well with the photographer, and everything went well.








But I got told the one sentence that has plagued me for my whole life. You were great .... your beautiful...those eyes.. BUT... you are way to big.. and your ass.. way to big ..you could be a porn star or something...?? WT???  WOW ..it's like that.... in that moment I think I was embedded with the seed of what would come eventually...









So what did I do with that moment....walked away... I was so frustrated. Still didn't see the sexiness....

Monday, November 28, 2011

Couple years later......

















After the birth of my 5th child and at my heaviest weight I found myself at a milestone in life and finally ready to
embracing the thickness that had mentally hindered 
me for years. The word that was most recently force down my throat by my OB/GYN was "Morbidly Obese"... over and over she would refer to me as to interns and then remind me as well. It's a  reminder of how I truly was feeling in that time. How those words defined me as a person in their eyes. I was moved in the words to want to embrace it like it was my new child. To nurture it and empower it to be expectable in any way I could. With the latest marriage ending I set out
to find myself and spend some quality time "finding 
that lost sexiness" .....

I had still had my house wife look and
still stuck in the 90's with bangs. But I decided to try and start taking pictures of myself and seeing if I could try modeling again. I took a few here and there and quickly went in and edited the "reality" of 
stretch marks and whatnot as my insecurities were yet to be removed from my mental thinking.... black and white seemed "doable"
As I look back and rethink my outfits and "the look" it seems so silly how I was stuck on my looks.... how I thought that I had to hide all the very things that made me sexy. I was so happy to play dress up.... and found I loved being in front of the camera again.
But soon enough these pictures would get noticed in the newly developing BBW community....